hot-tempered

i'm not sure why, i'm such a hot-tempered lately. yes i dont go and scold people, but buat muka ketat gila. i'm irritable, yet i easily get irritated over a small issue. erm. i do think gaining weight also contribute to my stress level? i used to cope with it with physical activities, but nowadays? perasaan tu dah faded away and being busy for quite some time.

i do need some time off from taking any orders. concentrate on tons of my assignments. roleplays. presentations. i thought final year would be relax from our previous years, yes less classes, but more exhausting. too many assignments and such. and frankly, i'm not a very good public speaker. as my colleagues call me, 'pemalas bukak mulut'. ;p


have to learn the right channel how to cope with stress.

kena baca quran ni. huhu.

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tatau nak tulis apa kali ni, tp rs cam nak meluah perasaan.. ;p

baru balik dr menolong macik pae, anaknya akan mendirikan rumah tangga besok.. sgt best sbb rs cam lama gila x mengalami cam experience berkenduri kahwin, especially skrg ni. semua asyik guna catering je. time ni la kt dpt bersuai kenal dan menjadi lebih rapat.. walaupun the fact is, i never did know them. ;p


firstly, td cam byk lepak dgn nenek ( mak macik pae). she's very talkative, dgn bahasa terengganu which i n ibu cant really understand pon. dia ckp dgn sgt laju! ptt angkut fiey skali, boleh jd translator kitorang. haha, i'm not sure how many times did she mention suruh dtg rumah if gi terengganu. of cos we will nenek! nak gi dusun pls? (manggis manggis manggis itu indah!!!) ;p

then, part yg senantiasa menjadi kelemahan. di mana2 kenduri kahwin atau tunang atau berunsur2 berumah tangga nya aktiviti. soalan bertalu2.

'hah ria, bila lagi? cam berbau2 je dah nasi myk?'

terus lemah lutut. hahahaha.

nak je jawab 'macik, sesungguhnya Allah itu telah menjadikan makhluknya berpasang2an. tiba jodoh saya kawin jela tros nanti! x perlu bercinta lama2'.

tp nanti cam poyo sgt je pulak. jadi senyum jela. pastu ibu pun menjadi penambah perisa yg hebat, dgtn berkata ' bf pon xde, kawin ape nya!'

ouch pedas. pls la ibu, i dah tnk bf ok! sbb tu sme laki lari! i want husband ye! bila sampai seru! dah berpuas hati dgn diri sendri! dah lyk jadi bini org!!!! ;p

for me, marriage is a very sacred bond.

it's not impossible for a couple, yg dah berthn2 lamanya kukuh berdiri, but when the time comes, suddenly, istana yg dibina berthn2 tu hancur. x mustahil bg org yg x menjaga hubungan mrk time belum kahwin, maybe akan diuji dgn hebatnya lepas kawin nanti. maybe dah x seindah mcm dl.cepat bosan dan sebagai. ada jgk org yg dah berthn2 couple, but they are not being themselves, pretentious sbb dia tau org suka kat dia, so they just prefer to be someone yg couple dia nak, not the true her/him.

ada jgk org yg ckp,
'hai. dgn org yg kita kenal pon boleh sampai jadi camni, sebenarnya baran, kuat mengongkong, apekan pulak org yg kt x kenal? sggp ke ko kang dah kawin2, baru tau sebenarnya laki ko tu suka kat pmpn lain tp sbb sakit hati dgn ex dia, dia kawin dgn ko? daring gl. ada lg ke laki yg cam ko nak tu??'

erm. bila sampai tahap camni, tawakkaltualaAllah.
bukan nya terus jadi bidan terjun, org ajak kawin terus nak kawin. x tau background, x tau perangai dia semua. lgpn zmn camni, ada lg ke lelaki yg cam aku jgk perspective dia? lelaki zmn skrg, ckp je tnk, x suka couple, terus lari, besok lusa dah ada pengganti. mcm tu nak percaya kata2 diorg yg kononnya nak cinta sehidup semati?

my own pov, i dont know about anyone else.

for the time being, enjoy just being u. go do anything (yg x bertentangan dgn syarak la obviously) that u wish for. bcos when u r already with someone else, i mean married, with kids, it's not appropriate anymore utk berlasak2 bersukan2 dan meninggalkan family, especially bg pmpn, suami tu ialah ketua?

but at the same time, jgn la sampai tutupkan segala hati, kang tertolak jodoh kang ada menjadi andartu yg teragung. keep ur choice open, i'm not being picky, tp bukan kah lebih baik kt memilih SEDIKIT skrg, sementara masih ada peluang? pmpn hanya boleh kahwin sekali, bukan 4?

yg paling penting, lelaki yg dipilih mestilah seorg yg berpegang pada agama, insyallah bahagia hingga ke akhir hayat, seseorang yg boleh membimbing, yg lyk menjadi nahkoda layar perkahwinan? rupa wang mmg la antara faktor yg penting tp bukanla PRIMARY needs. erm. dikira DEMANDING kah aku?

biarlah org nak kutuk pape pon, at least i have my own stand and i hope i cam prove to them. when we act by the rules, insyallah Allah akan kurniakan yg terbaik.. lg2 kalau kt bersabar je lg sket.. :)

aku hanyalah insan yg hina. terlalu byk kekurangan diri ni.. lately rs agak jauh terpesong, tp bukan aku menyalahkan mana2 pihak, just diri sendiri yg masih lemah dan senantiasa memerlukan kwn2 utk mengingatkan..



p/s: noor hafizah ahmad, u r my true best friend, no matter how much u annoy me, no matter how many times i dissapoint u, but u r always there for me.. thanks doink, aku sgt treasure ko sampai bila2.. :)

lelaki kachak!

Rasulullah (Sallallahu alaihi wasallam) said: 'When a man dies and his relatives are busy in funeral, there stands an extremely handsome man by his head. When the dead body is shrouded, that man gets in between the shroud and the chest of the deceased.

Selepas pengebumian, semua orang pulang ke rumah, 2 malaikat Mungkar dan Nakir, datang dalam kubur dan cuba memisahkan lelaki kacak ini supaya mereka boleh menyoal lelaki yang telah meninggal itu seorang diri mengenai ketaatannya kepada Allah. Tapi lelaki kacak itu berkata, Dia adalah temanku, dia adalah kawanku. Aku takkan meninggalkannya seorang diri walau apa pun. Jika kamu ditetapkan untuk menyoal, lakukanlah tugasmu. Aku tidak boleh meninggalkannya sehingga aku dapati dia dimasukkan ke dalam Syurga.'

Thereafter he turns to his dead companion and says, 'I am the Qur'an, which you used to read, sometimes in a loud voice and sometimes in a low voice. Do not worry. After the interrogation of Munkar and Naker, you will have no grief.'

When the interrogation is over, the handsome man arranges for him from Al-Mala'ul A'laa (the angels in Heaven) silk bedding filled with musk.

Rasulullah (Sallallahu alaihi wasallam) said: 'On the Day of Judgement, before Allah, no other Intercessor will have a greater status than the Qur'an, neither a Prophet nor an angel.'


a simple reminder for me and my dear friends. it's easy for us to go and hangout with fellow friends, til dawn pun xpe, but when it comes to spending ur time with ur CREATOR, reading His book and messages, sgtla berat. it's easier to finish reading the harry potter novels rather than Quran i guess? ouch. terasa juga penangan kat diri sendiri. hope that i'll be able to improvise, in being a better muslimah. and also to my dearest friends. :)

a day with the lil one.

ha si kecil ni. penat nak melayan kehendak dia sepanjang hari! haha. sanggup x pergi sekolah sbb nak stay bersama 'makcik' yg sgt baik dan cumil ini. mula2 aktiviti kitorang ialah membuat donut. tp ikut kehendak dia, nak donut kecil2 dan bercorak2. sampai ibu ayah mrh sebab kecil sgt. sekali telan je. huhu.


dah buat donut tu. kena bwk dia gi tmn teruntum pulak. hai. siap bwk bekal lg. cam berbatu2 je jauhnya! ;p

sedih gl. rs cam teraniaya je binatang semua kat situ. cam x perlu je sekor2. at least ada la couple dia. and binatang sme cam sgt restless je ddk kat situ. rs sebab. ishk. dah la sempit cage dia. cam x ikhlas gl! binatang sme cam x happy and passive. tidur je asyik. diorang pon x suka kot ddk situ? ;p


bear tu nampak cam tgh mengamuk dgn kitorang kan? hahaha.

pastu igtkan nak bwk farhah main motor2 tu, tp tiba2 arini dia ttp pulak. sian bdk kecik ni. so bwk ke tapak situ je la sambil mkn2. haha.



these are my fav pose! inspired by ezrin. ;p


it was fun. to have a lil kid around sometimes. :)

Dari Abdullah bin Amru beliau berkata, Rasulullah sallallaahu ‘alayhi wa sallam telah bersabda,

“Sesungguhnya salah satu dosa besar yang sangat besar adalah seseorang mengutuk kedua ibu bapanya.” Seseorang bertanya, “wahai Rasulullah, bagaimana mungkin seseorang mengutuk kedua ibu bapanya?” Baginda sallallaahu ‘alayhi wa sallam bersabda, “Seseorang mencela ayah orang lain kemudian orang itu mencela ayahnya dan mencela ibu orang lain dan kemudian orang itu mencela ibunya” [Hadith riwayat al-Bukhari dan Muslim]


ayah. i'm sorry. :(

addicted.

skrg sy sgt addicted to make cupcakes. boxes. ribbons. trying new recipes. oh i love baking!

smlm try wat cupcakes yg kecil2 with cream cheese topping. and wallah~ boleh di'komersil' kan. hahaha.

cheese cake! (angah thought me. sgt sedap berbanding recipe lama! benci abg ku oh~)
choc cake.
carrot cake.
sponge cake.
scones.
doughnuts.

and now looking for new recipies. :)



ah. i'm thinking of : a bakehouse.

there goes my 6 years of nursing studies.
haha.