2010

a better me, more organize, calm and in control. learn to prioritize things.

a better muslimah, read alot, and PRACTICE what i learned.

a better daughter, ease my parents, help my bros, n be a good n caring aunty.

a better future, work in clinical area first before endup in the education field.

a better friend, care about other people. less IGNORANT, understand better.

a better person. insyaallah..

may Allah help me in 'upgrading' myself.

AMIN. :)

yeay!

i'm happy. regardless of a very hectic day yesterday, acting like a mother settling both my 'not-so-lil' bro's stuffs regarding their school and such.

y am i happy? ibu bought me this!!! *bcoz i cannot afford it and i'm too stingy to use my own money of cos!* :)

now i can try tonsss of new flavour cuppies, and improve our design wise as well. i lebiu ibuuuuu! :)

oh! i'm supposed to write a book review that i think really open up my mind, *of cos content dia AGAK x sesuai dgn i sbb i x semurni gadis di buku itu* tp sgtla inspire me alot to improve myself. :) tp naddy dah wat review dl. wuwu. tp nak jgk from my POV! ;p

something to ponder

Never regret.

If it’s good, it’s wonderful

If it’s bad, it’s experience.

an inspiring quotations..

"Andai ada cinta manusia untukku, jadikan ia cinta yang bersandar pada cintaMU. Andai tiada cinta manusia untukku, jadikanlah CintaMU cukup untukku"

indah kan words ni? so kepada kwn2 yg still single lg, jgnla menggelabah sgt mencari lelaki *ye aku tau korang rs dah age 23 dan seharusnya dah settle down and lg bertambah inferior dgn undangan2 walimatulurus rkn2 seusia yg byk gl. sila bertenang ye. *reminder utk diri sendiri juga!* :)

sekadar berkongsi

fiey ahmad

topik kali ini amat menarik, terkesima sekejap membaca post ko yang. thanks for sharing! :)

maka bersyukurlah

hidup ni, kt kena senantiasa bersyukur. berterima kasih dgn Dia diatas semua yg Dia dah kurniakan kpd kt. :)

1. nikmat dilahirkan sebagai Muslim, kerana sy x rs sy akan menjadi sebegitu rajin utk mendalami Islam jika sy bukan seorang muslim. sedangkan sy seorang Muslim pun, TERLALU byk tentang Islam yg perlu sy dalami lagi. Ya Allah tlgla permudahkan urusan hambaMu ini.. T_T.

2. nikmat dikurniakan tanpa sebarang kecacatan, cukup sifat walaupun tidak hot, kerana sy x rs saya sebegitu kuat utk hidup sebagai OKU.

"Allah tkn menguji hambaNya jika Dia tahu hambaNya itu tidak mampu menghadapinya"

3. nikmat dikurniakan ibu dan ayah, walaupun ibu bapa sy x se'cool' dan best cam org lain, tp sy tahu mereka syg sy sbb itu mereka sgt protect sy. sy x rs sy boleh survive lg skrg tanpa ibu dan ayah. sy x cukup matang lg! :( walaupun kdg2 rimas dgn ayah yg sgt overprotective, i cant really blame him. he's just doing his responsible. *cuba utk menjadi optimist* besides, anak gadis la yg akan menentukan syurga ke neraka ayah mereka akan pergi so mmg sgt relevant la perilaku ayah tu. (so ria jgn ckp byk. obviously place ayah kat syurga x secure lg!) T_T. ya syg ayah walaupun ayah slalu mrh ya. :)

(gambar atas permintaan naddy. hah dah boleh recall?? ;p)

4. nikmat dikurniakan bdn yg tidak hot seperti jessica alba kerana sekiranya sy hot sy x rs sy boleh masih berpakaian sopan and will still be the same 'ria'. mestilah sy akan rs sy hot sy bagus dan x berkwn dgn org sebarangan. dgn temptation bj2 di topshop sampailah ke kedai2 cina jinjang yg murah2 tp 'terkelebak' abes2an. nauzubillah. even bj2 kurung dan bj2 di psr mlm xle nak transparent lg. haish. di mana la nak mencari bj yg elok. ;p

5. nikmat mkn dan minum. sy bersyukur masih boleh mkn dan minum segala2nya selagi x bertentang dgn syarak (til now i just cannot understand why some people nak jgk rs benda2 yg haram tu. seluas2 alam, sebyk2 mende boeh mkn minum, kenapa la yg 'seciput' mende haram tu ko nak try?? nauzubillah, harap2 aku xde perasan nak merasa mende tu sme). tp mkn dan minum berpada2, jgn sampai merosakkan tubuh bdn yg dah cukup sifat tu ye (wah! mkn dlm! ;p).

6. nikmat mempunyai kwn2. nasib baik la sy mempunyai rkn2 yg best, dan juga rakan2 yg senantiasa mengingatkan andai kata dah terpergi jauh melupakanNYA. :) too many ups and downs in friendship, but insyallah setiap org tu x semestinya kt perlu tgk negative nya shj, cuba tgk positive side of them as well*you are not MERELY perfect pon nak demand org best2 sepjg masa okay ria?*

gauls i love u. fiey dan rkn2 ku di uia sekalian. syg kamu semua. :)

7. nikmat belajar. alhamdulillah, walaupun tidak la genius, tidaklah bodoh sampai xle nak blaja or kerja. biarlah org memperlekehkan sy amek nursing ke x abes2 lg degreee ke apa, i dont mind (actually i do mind, but im trying not to be affected by all those narrow minded people, insyallah satu hari nanti terbuka kot mata mereka).

8. nikmat tidak dilahirkan dlm keadaan yg terlalu susah mahupun terlalu senang. bersyukur ke hadrat Illahi di atas kesederhanaan ni, kalau aku lahir dlm keluarga kaya mesti by now sy dah gi wat liposuction or gastric bypass. i'll less appreciate things in my life, i jd poyo atau perasan i sgt bagus korang sme sampah. membazir x tentu arah. i'm not saying all 'well-to-do' people are like that but tv selalu potray org2 kaya camtu? cam boleh kira je org kaya yg masih igt padaNya dan bersyukur?

*nauzubillah*. Allah knows best. :)

9. nikmat berada di uia. dl time sibuk couple2, benci gl why i have to end up in uia. sme benda kena jaga. ni x boleh tu x boleh. stress gl. even nak jumpa jap nak pass brg pon kena ada org teman. hish. skrg, alhamdulillah Allah dah membuka mata ku. setiap apa yg islam syarak kan tu sudah tentu ada rational dia. n actually sgt bersyukur sbb di sini la byk berjumpa dgn org, berbagai2 jenis org, uia bkn semestinya sme org baik, alim dan berjubah tudung litup. ada je jgk org yg mcm x pakai bj, tp at least i think diorang pon ada jgk belajar menambah ilmu agama mereka, terpulang pada diri sendiri, di mana pun belajar kalau hidayah Allah dah nak mengena kat org tu, insyallah dr seorang GRO pon boleh berubah. :)

ishk gila melalut, what i'm trying to say is, sy x rs sy begitu kuat utk belajar di oversea (temptation utk terpengaruh dgn org sana) dan unversiti2 yg agak 'hangat', sbb tu Allah letak sy disini, supaya sy lebih byk mendalami dan mengetahui mengenai hukum2 Allah. dan bertemu dgn org2 yg betul. ada jgk org yg sgt extremist dan memandang org yg cam sy ni x lyk pon berada kat uia, ataupun sy x lyk pon even utk mendapat senyuman dr mereka *seriously*. at first mmg rs dont belong pon to be here. tp bila dah masuk nursing ni, they kind of change my p.o.v. i love them, regardless of all the misunderstading and i rs i dah boleh accept them, and teguran diorang.. i surely will miss u guys once dah grad. T_T

10. nikmat dr Nya.. semua sekali, terlalu byk kot kalau nak dinyatakan.. x cukup pon nak tulis pun jika digunakan dr semua lautan di muka bumi ni sebagai 'ink' nya.. terima kasih atas segala nikmatMu Yang Esa.. even though sometimes i whine alot, but deep down im very grateful for what i have, and i'm trying my best to be a good servant.. :)


Ya mu qollibal qulub, thabbits qolbi 'ala thongatik.

"wahai Tuhan yang membolak-balikkan hati, tetapkanlah hatiku ini dlm ketaatan kepadaMU.."

ya Allah pjgnya post kalini! x igt dah bila last sekali bersemangat type sepjg ni. ;p

DETEST. HATRED. LOATHE.

i hate this feeling. i hate me hating people for no apparent reason, or when i already know what to expect from that particular person, but i'm trying to be optimist and hope that for once that person will actually change, but to no surprise, remains the same. haish. melayu dgn janji mereka. mmg x dpt dipisahkan. nauzubillah.

haha. sebln x post pape tiba2 post sesuatu yg emosi. bengot ria. aduhai, i hate the state of having PMS to be blamed on for my sucky attitude. mayb too many things happened lately and that's why im soooo irritable.

aduhai ria pls change.

stop being affected by people who clearly dont care about u and pls be cool like always.

glass half full glass half full!






and there i thought i will always have u as my best friend..

guess people really do change, for better or for worse.

i miss my gauls. erm at least part of them.